A Black Female Medical Student

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Posted on: May 30, 2010

Sighhhhhh.

It doesn’t even feel like Memorial Day wknd. I should be tootin’ it up at some all-white party right now, look all sexy and isht. But no, I’m sitting here trying to blow the fog out of my brain.

In other news, I’m becoming more dependent on food. I just went to the grocery store and bought all the chips and ice cream I could get my hands on. Its not really problematic, I wanna gain some weight. I freaked out mid-quarter b/c I was gaining weight unintentionally, but I looked at my booty in the mirror today and it looked disappointingly flat. I need get some of that junk back in my trunk.

Less than 2 wks til the THE TEST. I’ll be happy when my life can get picked back up again and start 3rd year. Its weird. All this time I’ve been looking at Surgery as this future blip in my life, where I would have nothing going on in life except apartment/hospital. Now that I think about it, I don’t think it has to be like that. I mean, board study wasn’t like that. Or it hasn’t been so far. I spend a lot of time in the library, but that was by choice, because I want to score above the average. I plan to do a lot of work when I start Surgery, but I’m going to make sure I have at least one day off for the weekend. Similar to what I did for the boards.

Posted on: May 28, 2010

One of the worst things you can do during board study is talk to your classmates. They will stress you out!

I was seeing a lot of improvement earlier in the week, but then I started talking to classmates (which I had seriously avoided before this week), and I have been feeling the negative effects. Its like no matter how much you’re doing, it seems like someone else is doing more/better, but feel like they’re “never gonna be ready.” Forget the fact that people always want to put their two cents in regarding your study methods, whether you asked for it or not.

Either way, I lost my mojo and I want to get it back.

I have 2 weeks from today, and I plan to make the best of it. I’m finishing up GI/Liver today, and I start Reproductive tomorrow. Hopefully, I’ll be done on Sunday so I can take an NBME on Monday. I left the last two weeks of my study schedule blank¬† in hope that my NBME score would give me an idea of what I need to do, and what I need to focus on.

But yes, if you take one thing from this blog,¬† during your Step 1 studying, DO NOT TALK TO YOUR CLASSMATES. A cursory “Hi, how are you doing, omg Step 1 studying sucks!” is fine, but anything more than that, then you start having people throw randomly detailed questions at you based off what they just studied (probably something they just got wrong on USMLEWorld), to make themselves feel better. At this point, there is nothing they can offer you except more stress and you do not need that.

All the best, and happy Memorial Day wknd!

Wow… only 16 more days? That is positively frightening.

I’m 65% through my QBank, I still have a few more Heme/Onc questions, but I’m going to put Heme/Onc aside and start Renal tomorrow. I’m hoping I can blow through all of Renal tomorrow and start GI/Liver on Thursday. That will probably take me til the end of Friday. After that start Reproductive/Endocrine which will take me through the weekend. I will have to spend like one day each on Psych/Behavioral and Musculoskeletal.

Wow…. I’m gonna have to start putting in more hours during the day. I do not have a lot of time left.

Posted on: May 19, 2010

Okay, Cardio is hard. I hate to think that I would have to spend ANOTHER day on it, but its looking like that might be the case. Maybe I’ll just move on with my life today, and then come back to it over the wknd. B/c I was supposed to be taking a practice test this wknd and I decided not to do that, and just take my first one after I’m through with Pathophysiology. I think that might be the best look, b/c then I’ll have a general scope of what I need to focus on.

Then again, I don’t want to make the mistake of getting caught up in the details. There really isn’t the time. I’m just going to do what I can to learn cardio today, then I’m going to move on.

I’m still not sure about taking a practice test this wknd, I just don’t know what good that would do me, when I haven’t gone thru 1/2 of the Pathophys.

Posted on: May 19, 2010

Board study is… I don’t know. Its stressful. I don’t everything is just crazy. I’m not doing as well as I would like to be doing on Cardio. I was getting cocky after I took my first practice test last week, but its gonna take a lot more work than I thought to get where I want to be.

Its getting harder and harder for me to focus. I feel like I’m getting less smart. There is no way that I’m going to push this test back though. Absolutely no way. I’m taking it on the 11th and that’s final. I want to be all awesome and motivated, but its getting harder and harder to do that. Especially since I feel a little bit like my body is falling apart. I feel dumb!

I’m not though. I’m doing okay. My scores on my practice tests dropped as the day went on, so maybe fatigue has something to do with it. I’ll spend the first 1/2 of tomorrow making myself read the Cardio pharm (which I absolutely HATE), and then I’m really gonna go through my wrong answers. One thing is that I am getting quite a few Biostats questions, but I’m starting to learn so hopefully those will soon start to become the “gimmies” that they’re supposed to be. Also, I have NOT been as thorough in reading explanations as I was when I first started out, so that stops today. I think it may have something to do with the fact that I would like to feel like I feel more comfort with this material than I did with some of this other stuff, but my grades are not reflecting that. So clearly, I need to take a more serious approach with this stuff than I have been.

I think I assumed the hard stuff was over since I go through the first couple of weeks, but clearly that’s not the case. And clearly I have alot more room for improvement if I’m consistently scoring so low on questions! But one another thing is that I did not really take any time off this past wknd. I wanted to put serious hours in this wknd, but I’m totally going to just take a break. Maybe work in the Saturday morning and then take some time off in the afternoon. Go and do my toenails or something. I was thinking about doing my hair, but I don’t feel like putting my hair through that trauma right now.

But yeah, time to put things in perspective. I could be doing a lot worse. I just want to be doing better. I’m going put myself to bed, make sure I get at least 7 hours, get up tomorrow and KILL CARDIO ONCE AND FOR ALL.

And I will NOT stress out abt starting surgery next month.