A Black Female Medical Student

Ruminations.

Posted on: October 18, 2010

I talked with one of my mentors today. He told me he has cancer. The same cancer that his father died from. It was so sad to hear.

Life is so weird. And full of surprises. Not good ones either. There is no way to really prepare for what life throws at you. I’m starting to really understand that now. But I don’t really know how to deal with that information.

So much of my life planning goes towards my career. Its like only in my career do I think ahead of time, and plan and ruminate. And sometimes over my hair. I kind of just hope and assume everything else in my life will just fall into place. And that couldn’t be farther than the truth. But I need to plan and focus on my life in other areas as well, include my general happiness and enjoyment. I sacrifice so much for my studies. Why not for my personal life as well?

I would love to travel, but I rarely have the opportunity to. Partially b/c it is so hard for me to find someone to travel with. Also, I have no idea where my passport is.

A good thing for me to do would be to explore the little neighborhoods around here. There are polish towns and all kinds of little stores. Especially now that I will be having weekends off till the end of the year.  I think I’ll spend my time just looking around, exploring. Its probably a good way for me to get used to being in new places by myself.

I don’t know. I just wanna enjoy life. I really am beginning to see how brief life is. Absolutely nothing is promised to us humans. Not happiness, not health, not life itself. Not even good grades if you study hard. sigh.

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